The Writer

I write personal essay. I write to find out how I feel about something, an aspiration I learned from the poet May Sarton. I sometimes picture myself as a grizzled prospector leading a forlorn, burdened donkey into the trackless waste of basin and range country, looking for riches that might be only a few bright flecks in a stream.

These essays explore my world, from the hiking trails of California to the Java Sea and the Silk Road, from school days to retirement, from my backyard to my bookshelves. I invite you to read them—with this caveat from the Persian poet Hafiz:

Listen: this world is the lunatic's sphere,
Don't always agree it's real,

Even with my feet upon it
And the postman knowing my door

My address is somewhere else.

*The quote above about the fish is from Pablo Neruda.

May 9, 2012: Kortum Trail

            So many wildflowers! And we have had so little rain this year. From Wright's Beach to Shell Beach, the trail is thick with all kinds of flowers and all at their best—mustard, radish, flax, morning glory, wild strawberry, blackberry, blue bush lupine, checkerbloom, seaside daisy, English daisy, ox-eye daisy, buttercup, goldfields, Indian paintbrush, and many more, including lots of pink Armeria maritima in their native habitat. I propagate these in the rock garden section of the nursery at the San Francisco Botanical Garden. The garden cultivars have better-looking foliage, but the wild blossoms, at least this year, are fatter and pinker. Cow parsnip has completely colonized the hills and bluffs. Blue-eyed grass, which is really more purple than blue, is quite abundant and is a long-time favorite of mine. A real treasure found today is Brodiaea terrestris subsp. terrestris, dwarf brodiaea. It's similar to the Romulea that I found last week out at Pt. Reyes in that the flower is only about an inch and a half wide and has an extremely short stem. It looks like it is sitting right on the ground—and it grows in the middle of the trail.
            The day is glorious, starting off misty and cool. Later the clouds drift away and the sea sparkles in the warm sunshine. The drive out to the coast was quite flowery and in and around the town of Bodega Bay I have never seen the Echium candicans (Pride of Madeira) looking so spectacular.
 
A flower-carpeted bluff.
 
Dwarf Brodiaea
 
Blue-eyed grass

May 2, 2012: Bayview Trail–Fire Lane Trail Loop

The drive out to Pt. Reyes National Seashore is lovely, especially Limantour Road, lined with crowds of forget-me-nots, lotus, seep-spring monkeyflower, ceanothus, and cow parsnip. I hope the trails will be just as flowery.
The day starts off windy and cool, but as I go inland and up into the forest, it becomes calmer and warmer. This must the Year of Cow Parsnip because these tall white wildflowers are all over the hills. The first part of Bayview Trail is overgrown and lush with grasses and ferns. There seem to be more thimbleberry and salmonberry flowers than in most years. And this is the best  month for ceanothus, it's all over the hills—dark blue, medium blue, light blue, and almost white, giving out a sweet, delicate fragrance. In places the branches hang over the trail like a tunnel.
I'm glad I wore long pants because stinging nettle is often draped across the trail. I find the white form of nightshade, as well as aquilegia and sanicle—more than sixty different wildflowers in all. Most species occur in hordes, everything looks fat and happy. I pass many lovely "gardens." Here is one of yellow buttercups, blue-eyed grass, and red paintbrush. A little farther up, blue flax and red sorrel make a great color combination. Then there's gatherings of purple iris, white cow parsnip, and yellow buttercups. High up in the woods I discover lots of Calochortus tolmei, "pussy ears," the diminutive, fuzzy, white and lavender member of the lily family that I usually see out by the beach on windy bluffs.
Near the top of the ridge I can see what's happened to the Bishop pine forest since the devastating Mount Vision Fire of 1995. Bishop pine cones don't open until they have come in contact with fire, so while the mature forest was ruined, thousands of seedlings thrived. Many of the new trees are still only about two inches in diameter and growing quite close together. Many are dying because they are shaded out by the faster growers. The twenty- or thirty-foot-tall tops are green, but at eye level it's mostly dead brown needles on brown branches.
Fire Lane Trail, at its junction with Sky Trail, is only ten to twelve inches wide. The forget-me-nots lining the path by the thousands brush up against my legs. They form a nice contrast with the red salmonberry flowers. Farther along there's tons of  ceanothus bushes twenty feet high hugging the trail. The ground along some stretches is covered with what looks like blue cornmeal—millions of tiny ceanothus blossoms.
At the few open places, I can look out over the ravines and see more ceanothus flowing down the hillsides. You couldn't find a display anything like this in a botanical garden. Purple, iris, yellow buttercups, and cow parsnips round out the color scheme.
            I see a number of adult quail, no babies yet. A chickadee flits across the path with a beak full of nesting material; it looks furry.
            I have decided that the ceanothus is the star of the day, and the display is truly wonderful, but when I get down to the junction of Fire Lane and Laguna Trails I come upon a tiny but spectacular surprise: Romulea rosea. This little immigrant from South Africa has made itself perfectly at home along many roadsides and trails in California. In Australia it is considered an invasive weed, but it could never become that here because it grows only in disturbed places where it gets walked on, driven over, and stamped down by hooves. Still it survives in all its tiny beauty. The flowers are pink, about one and a half inches across, and have very short stems. The blossoms look like they have popped up right out of the ground. I usually find them in spring along this part of the trail, but this year they are legion. I have never seen so many. They are my favorites of the day.
 
Ceanothus along Bayview Trail
 
Blackberry blossoms have never looked lovelier.
 
Along Fire Lane Trail.
 
Romulea rosea